Azure Ray - November

I played this song while I was holding my newborn son 11yrs ago?

Lyrics
So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone by maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly

I was afraid to be alone
Now I'm scared that's how id like to be
All the faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities

So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems to far away
Until I'm taken by these bults of pain

But I turn them off and tuck them away
Till these rainy days that make them stay
And then ill cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone

And they echo through my head everyday
And I don't think they'll ever go away
Just like thinking of your childhood home
But we can't go back were on our own

Oh
But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks your not here
And I think ill want to be alone
So please understand that I don't answer the phone

I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until I can see nothing at all
Only particles some fast some slow
All mys can see is all I know

Oh
But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

Dodo
Dodo

16 years ago, a special friend gave me thing song. Good old days

Just was remembering falling in love with Azure Ray in my Midwestern high school in the early 2000s. Between 2000 and 2003 they put out 3 albums and an EP and they were all fantastic. I don't think they've ever gotten nearly the acclaim they deserve.

Just like thinking of your childhood home but we can't go back, we're on our own

I listened to this a lot as a teenager. I didn't analyze the lyrics back then.. but now -- what a downer of a song.. The fact that I listened to it over and over back then speaks to how lonely and sad I was all the time throughout my entire childhood and adolescence. what a poor boy.

November 2019 anyone?

My annual listening of this beautiful song. Happy November, fellow humans!

it's that time of year :(

I was 6 years old when this came out

Hi. finally it's November!




-2020-
.cibon

What a beautiful song ...

I'll cry so hard ..to these sad songs

21/7/2020. i wonder if i'm the only broken soul playing this music right now in this sunny London park. This song just touches every single string of my hopeful, defeated, nostalgic heart.
Beyond beautiful.

"What do people do with their free time? They fuck it up"
-Sam Dillemans, "the madness in the detail"

This song describes me perfectly

I was in my early 20s when this album first came out and I ripped it from Limewire while living in NYC, going to college and shacked up with my Gen X boyfriend in an apartment on the Hudson River ?

If this ain’t playin at my funeral I ain’t dyin

2020, two cellphones later and I finally found this pice I missed so much to heard in my lonely days, the days I spend in dates with myself. I can say I feel complete now.

I was scared to be alone. Now I'm afraid that's how I like to be.
Echos into my consciousness.

And here we were again. November, rainy deep blue-walled solitude and boutique music to reflect the prevailing mood... ?

Makes me feel 15 again.
Still makes me cry ?

Finally it's november. (2019) Happy November everyone..